CHICAGO -- For two decades, Debra Gindorf (pictured, left) has walked through life in prison labeled as a "baby killer."

"You got newspapers, people in society writing letters," she told Unit 5's Renee Ferguson. "Now, I'm incarcerated in the prison system and you hear it here, too."

Video: Gindorf Seeks Clemency

Ferguson reported on Wednesday that Gindorf is challenging Illinois Gov. Rod Blagojevich to set her free. Gindorf was sentenced to natural life for the 1985 deaths of her children, Jason and Christina. Gindorf said she took poison, then decided at the last minute to poison her children. They died, she didn't.

"It was all about me wanting to die, and then I come to find out my body went wacko," Gindorf said.

"And you get natural life?" Ferguson asked.

"And I get natural life," Gindorf replied. "Go figure."

Nearly two decades later, new mothers Melanie Stokes and Andrea Companari both committed violent suicides, Ferguson reported. Experts blamed postpartum depression and psychosis.

"[There is] a disconnection with reality," said Dr. Sarah Allen, a licensed counselor. "They do not have rational thoughts. What we would know is not a good thing to do, they would actually believe that is the only option they had."

Based on a new understanding of the disease and how it affected Gindorf, her attorneys have now petitioned Blagojevich for clemency.

"If he really believes in it and he supports it then the case that's in front of him, that's been in front of him since last year, can speak so loud," Gindorf said.

Ferguson reported that a Blagojevich representative said the governor was too busy to address the issue with Unit 5. Gindorf said that she fears the governor will always be too busy to deal with her case.

Gindorf also said she knows there are other loud voices against her, Ferguson reported. Gindorf said that she understands that her children are still dead, but adds that people need to "stop looking at the end result and looking at how it got there first."

"We need to recognize when people are murdering when they intend to murder and when they're doing it when they're psychotic," Allen said.

Gindorf said her only chance at life outside prison walls now lies with Blagojevich and whether he sees her as a murderer or a victim.

"My life is in his hands," she said.